Its ok.

it hurts its like itchy spiders crawling all over
your dead eyes are haunting me

its ok.
of course i mean its ok
and i am very happy that you do not feel anything
no pain
no nothing
but i do not feel
anything
anymore

its like a year have gone
its like i am living in a dream
its like so strange
its like not real
its like nothing is real
anymore

its raining and i just do not want to go up from my bed
i just want to stay inside my shell forever

i do not want
to do
anything

i did one thousand
sit ups this morning
but i do not
feel
anything

but i think it is ok.

and at least it is summer

Wake up to another world

 Running down, falling up. Flying under water.

There are nothing as lovely as consistence.

Hi friend. Lover.

You are still in my thoughts, there is nothing important to say to you now. We are all a small piece of this bigger thing, called life.

I am, what you see

Iam because I feel.

I feel, than I am.

I think, than I am

I trust than I believe

I can than I jump

I do because I want

There is maybe nothing that really is worth anything. Or is there something, than I do not know.

The smell of sweetness, with something sour in the touch of the air brushing against me.

I feel for crying. Lie in some-body,

 with some body nice.

Fuerza. I want to cry right down your opened eyes.

Cry your naked body wet.

Let me just lie in your arms tonight.

Soon there will be no more. Soon there will be no mass. Soon I open my eyes. Soon I fall. Into the darkness. I fall because I want. To.

What do I feel.

I wonder if I feel 

  I have so much energy. It is not normal. It feels like I could walk the world,

but actually I just want to lie in some

body’s arms tonight

listen to some

ones heartbeat

that its not mine 

as a change.